OAKLAND, Calif. – The nursing director at a California college where seven people were killed said Wednesday she believes the gunman was targeting her over a financial dispute, but she was teaching elsewhere when he opened fire on others at the campus.

“In talking to several of the students and faculty who were there, I think he was looking for me. I have that weight on my shoulders and I don’t know what to do with it,” Ellen Cervellon, director of the nursing program at Oikos University, told The Associated Press, her voice quavering.

“Every single one of those students were going to be an excellent, excellent nurse. They’re in my heart, and they always will be,” she said.